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Moment of enlightenment
As I lay in bed yesterday afternoon, about to fall asleep for a much needed nap, awarmth of what I can only describe of contentmentand perfectness washed over me. I realized that, at that moment, my live was amazing, wonderful, and perfect.

There was and is so much that's going amazingly well in my life: I own a house, I have a set of close friends, my job not only pays the bills, it's giving me opportunities for advancement.

I had a niggling thought, that if my life was really perfect, I'd have a boyfriend, as well. But as soon as I thought about that, I dismissed it. I could have a boyfriend, but most of the time, boyfriends seem to cause you more stress than happiness -- how often do we not understand those we date? I don't have to deal with the drifting apart that seems inevitable 90% of the time; I merely have to deal with my cats loving me too much.

I was also very certain right then, that there was a Darren to my jezurelle; a Scott to my zarobi. My Darren and Scott are out there, and when we meet up, it will be worth the wait.

At that moment, tucked under cool sheets and a warm comforter, I was, for that stretch of time, absolutely happy. I loved who I was, strengths and faults combined.

I'm still basking in the afterglow.

Current Mood: happy happy
Current Music: Leona Naess - I Tried to Rock You But You Only Can Roll

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From: jezaurelle Date: June 23rd, 2002 11:43 am (UTC) (Link)
You are so cute. It makes me happy to see that you are happy. I always thought that you have to be completely happy with yourself before you can find someone to be happy with. Because that makes sense, after all. Sending love your way, my dear. :)
maigrey From: maigrey Date: June 23rd, 2002 01:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
Aw. Thank you, sweetie!! :)
matinee From: matinee Date: June 23rd, 2002 07:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
i'm so glad! and you expressed that wonderfully, heather. :)
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